Personal Hell 2

Yesterday was my best friends birthday.
She means the world to me but we had a falling out over nothing and once again i got used for her own personal gain and pleasure.
I did not send her a birthday wish for fear she would kick me off her page.
Why should i live in fear?
The funny thing is i'm still in love with her.
Why is she treating me this way?
What did i do so bad to make her act like this.
She ignores me like i have the plague or something.
Its like she is a psycho or something.
And i still love her and do anything to get her back as a friend.
I never knew that someone could be this mean towards a fellow human being.
The time we had was wonderful and then over one remark, i'm out like a hot potato
Why do i put up with this?

Personal Hell

Going through a divorce sucks
When does this feeling of being a bad person go away.
I'm not a bad person but I'm tired of getting used by woman.
I know my life must move on but it is hard.
I have an apartment now and look forward to moving in.

Valentines Day

I hate Valentines Day
When you don't have the one you love it is very depressing.
My whole ordeal has put a damper on the day.
I love you anyway my dear.
Here is a rose from me to you
@};-------

Love me or not

How can i move on

This whole ordeal has taken a toll on me but I'm getting better.
I still think about my true love and it hurts not knowing how things are.
I'm completely shut off from there world.
Moving On seems impossible but if i do i'm afraid i will miss her.
Why is Life and Love so complicated some times.
Is Cupid on strike or did he run out of arrows?

This stinks,the waiting and not knowing what to do.
I'm ending one relationship but the next one has shut me out.
Why?
Was i vulnerable to think that things would be ok if we got together?
I miss her and its hard to believe that she is seemingly gone forever
How long do i wait?
Why doesn't the pain go away?
I have changed because of this ordeal and i want her to see the new me.
Just one more chance

All I have is Hope

Waiting for a chance to prove myself to my best friend is painful.
Every communication tool or program has been cut off but Hope is all i have and it grieves me.
I have never in my life hurt like this before and its so unfair to me.
I messed up by not expressing stronger feelings to her and now it appears hopeless.
I missed a golden opportunity to tell her how i felt about her and i missed it.
She is an Extraordinary,Beautiful,Fun Loving,Spontaneous,Sweet,Caring,and Wonderful Woman
I can't see my life without her,and i messed up.
My gift to her triggered something and i can't take it back.
She was my life,my sole mate,my best friend and i messed up.
How can i get through this knowing that i hurt her enough that she doesn't want anything to do with me.
The Pain and tears are more than i can bear at times.
But all i have is Hope.
Hope that she will give me another chance to prove myself.
This has changed me and put me out of my comfort zone.
I want to show her how i really feel about her but i can't.
I want to show her how proud i would be to be her husband but i can't
I want to show her how beautiful that she is but i can't
I want to show her how much i Love her unconditionally but i can't
There are not enough words to express how much i Love her, but I can't
All i want is another chance but I wait and Hope
God has seen me through this trial and i know he cares
But right now all i have is Hope.
My Love for her will never end no matter what happens
I Love You

Personal Trials

You know you love someone when you know you want them to be happy, even if their happiness means that you are not a part of it.
- Anonymous

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.
- Anonymous

Every adversity, every failure, and every heartache,
carries with it the seed of an equivalent or greater benefit.
- Napoleon Hill

Tears are a silent language of grief ( How true for me)

I know personal trials make us stronger but my trials are a result of kindness and that kindness cost me my best friend.
As my tears flow i wander "WHY", its so unfair and i don't understand this pain.
How can people be so mean over and act of kindness?
I obviously failed this person in a way i did not know about. So my pain is to much to bear.
I know my Life will never be the same.

Will I ever have the chance to get a second chance? All i have is hope.

Obama Billboard

Enough Said!!! click here

Should we trade safety for jobs?

Well it appears now that Illinois has won the sweepstakes to house detainees from Gitmo, or it appears that way at this point.
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Is Our Sovereignty in Danger?

Watch this and you Decide!!!

2009 Deficit, Well we mooooovin on up!!!

What is $1.42 trillion? It's more than the total national debt for the first 200 years of the Republic, more than the entire economy of India, almost as much as Canada's, and more than $4,700 for every man, woman and child in the United States.
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Nobel Peace Prize,has it been cheapened?

So the President was picked for a Nobel Peace Prize and i must admit i was not surprised at all.I mean you have people like Gandhi,FDR,Winston Churchill,Pope John Paul II who never were given a look and did more for Humanity than Obama has done in 12 days (when the nomination was submitted).
Here is a Leader who apologizes for his country and rubs shoulders with Rouge Dictators like Hugo Chavez and yet he is given an award for literally nothing that he has done.
Unemployment is up,Spending is through the roof and A blank check sits on his desk waiting for his signature,and he cannot decide what the best option is regarding Afghanistan even though His Commander insists they need more troops.Whats he waiting on? Christmas? Sounds like a real leader too me. Just Bankrupt your country and don't give damn about the future of children and generations to come.
But yet this man gets a peace prize. For what I ask?
Heck while we are handing out rewards why don't we give him the Heisman Trophy,Cy Young Award and Times "Man of the Year".
Even the Russians say its a Huge mistake Click Here
And the British Press is calling it 'absurd' click here

"Cash Cow" Rangel's Rental Problems

Charlie,Charlie; Please say it isn't so!!
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You know Joe Wilson was supposed to apologize for his outburst last week but i have one question for "Stretch" Pelosi and "Body Odor" Reid and the Whole Democrat Party.
When is "Cash Cow" Rangel going to apologize for his tax misdeeds and the screws that he has put to the American taxpayer.
Come on you hypocrites where is the apology?

This Weeks Cartoon(s )!!!

Obama admits in eliminating private insurance

Obama IN HIS OWN WORDS admitting his Health Care Plan will ELIMINATE private insurance OBAMA AND THE DEMOCRATS HEATH CARE GOAL IS A PUBLIC OPTION THAT WILL ULTIMATELY ELIMINATE PRIVATE EMPLOYER PROVIDED INSURANCE.

Hmmm how can this be? Maybe he just didn't mean it like that!!
I thought he said we would have a choice or aybe he just didn't mean it like that
again!!
Maybe Rep. Joe Wilson should have yelled louder.

WE REMEMBER !!!!!

But Do we mean It? Read this powerful story!!
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